So here's my turn to finally finally FINALLY try and get myself to
EAT CLEAN.
Seems pretty
impossible to me but I Must do this! Plus, this is why I'm actually blogging again. ;D
- I NEED TO FOCUS!-
Frappucino! Chocolate! Ice-Blend! Sweets! Gummies! Ice-Cream!
^ They are practically my staple food actually. I'm not kidding.
How am I supposed to keep up with this 28 day Teatox thing if I can't get myself to stop craving for them twenty-four-seven?
I know very well that this is going to be hard now. I thought I wouldn't be that bad because I don't really eat much and I hate hate rice/noodles/pasta. Basically I hate all the main ingredients that is the bulk of the meal because those things don't really taste good (unless with gravy/dishes/meat) and they make me feel full so so fast, so easy. Once I'm feeling full and bloated by eating the rice for example, I won't be able to enjoy the savoury dishes. :( This is practically the main reason that I'll try to explain to the rest of the world when I refuse to order a proper meal when I eat out for lunch with the rest of them.
Some of my friends would understand my dilemma and this 'Food Coma' that I'm trying to avoid but some of them don't really care and would just accuse me of trying to be a 24/7 diet chick. HELLO! I ordered a freaking Large sized Mocha Frappe! How is that even call 'Dieting'?! -_-"
But... I'm got a confession to make.
I actually do take laxatives quite frequently and sometimes in dangerous amounts. This is actually the actual problem that I'm facing. I Hate Hate Hate being bloated and feeling like there's so much 'digested food that can't get out' inside of me. I'm guessing it's because of my unhealthy eating/drinking habits. I'm trying to be honest here. I know my mistakes. I know what's happening to me and I ain't liking it. I do want to change and I know it's not going to be easy. I know this because, trust me, I've tried to change multiple times before and I jump straight back to where I started without any improvements. It sucks knowing that I've failed myself. The temptation is just too great and no matter what, I just couldn't get myself to feel less bloated and have better bowel release. I need help but I'm not really sure where to start.
However, I've decided to try this!
How it helps:
I'm going to start the Skinny Mint TeaTox program tomorrow and will Try Try TRY my best to update everything about my progress and what I ate/ what exercises I do here. So hopefully, this will motivate me to keep things in order and not lose myself to another sweet tooth craving as easily as the previous trial. I tried teh 14 day starter pack btw, but it I didn't see much progress because I was too busy celebrating Hari Raya. To all Muslims, you guys probably understand how it is almost impossible to actually eat clean during Hari Raya Month. All those FFFOOOOOOOOODDD.... >.<
But hey, let's try to think positive now. At least I didn't gained weight. I'm not that much of a fan of being forced to eating at every house that serves us food. Just take it that... I've learned how to avoid feeling guilty for turning down the food that the host has cooked but also at the same time still be innocent and sweet enough in their eyes, hence no rejected feelings there. ;) This take experience and skills and years of visiting their house every year and they get used to me not wanting to eat much.
Tonight I'll be going for a short run, 4~5km. Then I'll do some tone up exercise for my incredibly flabby arms. Tmr will be the first day I drink the Morning Boost TeaTox and I'll try to measure myself and post it up here. trying to be real and honest here so that I don't fall back and waste the $62.50 that I've spent on getting this. Haha.
Okie chiao! Time for a Run!
Xoxo,
